Possessive

The worst thing to ever be is be possessive over a friend, or two friends, in my current case.

I hate that they had to meet.

And what's worst is that I'm slowly beginning to repair my friendship with one of them.

To see that friend talk to my other friend more just sends me into a spiral of insecurity,

and naturally,

especially with those with bonds that have weakened or been broken and are being repaired,

I grow possessive.

I hate having to be the most insidious being, thing, concept that I've ever come across.

I just want to punch myself in the face.

I don't fear loneliness or isolation--

I'm just sick of it.

I am beginning to hate someone very close to me.

I realize that they're not that conscious of what they're doing sometimes; they don't realize how rude or inconsiderate they can be.

Honestly, I just want to punch them in the face.

I have never felt so apathetic in my life.

I stated I wanted to be friends again

but now

I'm tired.